moved

i've decided to move on... 

www.thegenerationparadox.wordpress.com

this blog is officially CLOSED.

a "don't" of blogging

come on, if you don't want anyone to know how you really feel, or anything of such, don't blog!

blogging it and setting it in small fonts makes no difference.

if you say you want to just pen yout thoughts down, but not want others to see, then go create a private blog, or type them in MS Words and safe them.

blogging it in your open blog (including in small fonts and ugly colours) only means others are allowed to see.

unless that's your main purpose, to capture attention, so people around will start asking what happened, and you'll be all emo and say, 'nothing'.

P.S. i'm not refering to any particular person/people.

Trust God

it is I who role the dice,

it is God who determines how it lands.

i trust God, my solid Rock.

shoes that don't fit you

it's important to do everything sincerly.

do unto others what you want others do unto you.

i know i did.

i guess...

everything turned out this way cos of the way we thought for ourselves.

one party thinks: i want to be accountable to them, and i dont expect them to react in any bad way.

the other thinks: so i've been used, my opinion dont matter. 

"i", "my"... why haven they thought...

1: will they be okay? will they take it well? will this be doing them any good?

2: are they feeling as bad as we do? (yes) why did they tell me, did they really need me?

it's about placing others before self. 

yea, it's hard to ignore one's own feelings.

like putting others before self when i'm feeling really bad. 

that's definitely not quite easy.

yea, that's where i say "sorry".

sorry for not sparing a thought for you guys.

sorry for not telling you earlier.

asking you out so far was only cos i really wanted to go out with you.

if you find it too much of a coincidence, i dont know what to say.

if you bother to read on... probably cos my promos just ended 2 monthss ago, and probably cos it's my hols.

these are reasons why you're willing to go out too, isn't it? (besides cos it's a close friend asking you out)

this is the part where i put myself in others' shoes...

probably cos of different characters, i only understood certain parts.

parts such as...

being worried.

being angry i'm only informed now.

being pissed i've been used (tho it's not true).

being disappointed.

i dont understand the part about losing a friend and being a lousy friend.

gosh, did you even hear us out? 

i think i'm only asking for trouble, inviting quarrels, hope you understand ya.

i guess, this is something for all of us to learn.

" Can we cross the barrier and be gracious with those who have hurt us?"

"Christians are a helpful bunch with no motives as well."

- credits: ziyi

what's in this for all for us?

Happy New Year!

great fulfilling year. let's recap 2008...

events:

1)NYJC

that pae period was cool. really honeymoon. i pon the lessons i dont like, didnt really do tutorials. but thank God the friends i made there are really guai and smart people. hahaha. i played touch rugby there too! =p

2)JJC

begining was still honeymoon. then the stress kicked in. well, there was a period where i dread sch so so much, i was afraid to step into sch. i'll never forget that feeling man. but my gracious God brought me through and now i know, i'm doing this for a far greater purpose.

3)Camps

camps are awesome. serious. tiring, a lil too much commitment, but fun. great friends, great campers, great experience.

4)Promos

woah. that crazy period. honestly, i didnt study hard. really. but i seriously thank God that my results are not that bad. no exemption, but no need to retake any papers. no top in class, but what more can i expect when i dont study hard.

5)YI Camp and X'mas Bash

i've been doing really little this year. didnt go for set-ups. but i did different roles, a lil more sounds now. quite cool being the sound operator for x'mas bash. i did the sound effects! kinda lag at times, but still, a learning experience. 

YI camp this year is just amazing. it's been a really long long time since i've hear God so clearly. i think i'm being transformed. i no longer feel that kind of really high passion. instead, it's those that you're convicted by the Holy Spirit. you just know it, you dont have to feel it. indescribable. 

people:

1)Ziyi, Zhiyu

hahaha. they are people i can always talk to. crap, jokes, rants, secrets, etc. i can tell them anything and everything under the sun!

2)Cellgroup

cellgroup had grown. not in size, but in the way we act, talk, maturity. i dont really know how to describe, but you can see the change, a positive change. and cellgroup is definately one group of people i look forward to seeing at the end of every week.

3)Media

was it this year we had our media retreat? yea. it's cool. media people are nice. kena a lil more from muen this year, but well, it's kinda my bad. nice bunch to hang out, have fun with.

4)Calista, Huiting, Evan, MichelleNg, MichelleLo

these 5 oikos girls are people i like to hang out with. we dont get to meet often, but they've been around for me. when times are bad, i know they are a group of friends i can turn to. how do put it? i dont really know. but this kind of friends are hard to come by, and i just thank God i'm blessed with them.

5)Luwei

how can i forget him when he thanked me on his blog. yea, it's amazing how God answered his prayer. luwei ever prayed that we can be good friends. and our prayer-answering God answered his prayer. definately a friend i enjoy sitting down and talk with. i remember that time we played guitar and talk. so cool. we were no guitar pros, but i enjoyed his company.

6)JingWei, Mindy, Esther, Liyuan, Jieying, Gabriel, Muxin

i dont really hang out much with that gang now, but i sure did enjoy when i do hang out with them. =)

7)Weehuat

cool teacher. not much teaching this year. but always liked talking to him

8)Gideon Ren

i like talking to him. he taught me so so much. thanks Gideon!

9)Gideon Choo

i've been talking a lot with him this year, unexpected huh. i didnt expect it myself. great dad, funny problems, and i like making fun of him with you-know-who. hahaha. thanks dad!

10)Wei Shun, Varma

they are people i've not been talking to, but people i can freely share to. thanks for being around to hear me out this year. =)

11)08s02

going through the year together is kinda cool. studying together, crapping together. a lil unhappy-ness sometimes, but well, a great bunch of people to hang out with. like in the chalet. i definately enjoyed myself.

12)Peishing, Winnie, Bernie, Yixuan, Zhaomian

great friends to tide me thru the year. what will i do without them. i'll probably die in JJ. hee!

13)Chengyong

cool friend. it's kinda weird how we got close. hahha. all thanks to me? well, we dont really talk, but when we do, we sure can talk quite a lot. did share with him. and especially when we're in different lecture groups and many of our breaks clashes, there are a lot of stuffs i can borrow from him when i forget to bring stuffs and such. hee!!

14)n_n

i'm sorry i dont appear in a lot of our outings. sundays! family days! sorry! but well, they are definitely a group of people i never wanna lose contact with. thanks for you guys' great company.

15)Chongxiang

also a friend i never wanna lose contact with. great friend. love to catch up with him. nice study partner too. haha. thanks dude. =)

16)Rebecca Kan, Joel Lew

hahah. thanks for.. yea.. you get it. hahaha. this period... but it's ending. i'll probably bug you guy less now. heehee!!

i've named quite a fair bit, but there's still more to go. 

most importantly, my all-amazing, all-powerful God who tide me through my difficult times, dance with  me through my happy times, and provide peace in confusing times. what would i do without Him. i can never, never ever, imagine life without Him. thank God for the people who crossed my path, thank God for my always-supportive family, thank God for cellgroup, media, etc. thank God thank God!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

a taste of my thoughts

the Bible is a book we experience.

changes is part of this course of life we experience. every moment... changing... our enviornment, the situations we're in, how we feel, how we think, what we do, what we choose to say.

main point: be sure of what you hold on to, and never regret. be accountable for your own actions.

some may say,"nono, main point is to please God." yea, we know. please God. definately. a must. and it all points back to the Bible. 

but there are stuffs we will come across that has no specific right or wrong. that's why even Christianity itself, there are divisions. some think that worshipping God with a huge band, loud music is not okay. some thinks it is. i'm sure those who think it's not okay will not be condemned. they still worship God in the way they think will please God the most. some may say, in the Bible, king David celebrated with loud music too. but well... different people have different defination of loud too. same way, some may think only after 21 can one get into a relationship. are you sure 21 is the right age? some may mature sooner, some later. they are accountable for what they do, and they please God the way they think will please God the most. doesn't mean getting in one early means not pleasing God. yea, there are many factors to it. studies, family, finance. well, doesn't mean getting in one at 21 means all these factors are no longer there too. 

i think it's okay to make mistakes. it's okay to make the wrong turns. some people just need to experience the hurts before they'll learn. be responsible for your own act and make sure you dont regret. that's important. of course, never fogetting, please God.

it's individual, that's my point of view. you can share with me your views, but if i dont agree to them, dont try to convince me and force your idea on me. thanks.

who are you looking to?

"when it came to making mistakes… i always looked at peter

when it came to fear and smallness.. i looked to gideon!

when it came to suffering.. i looked to king david

i always looked at their responses

when it came to running away from a task, i looked to jonah.

when it came to a world that made no sense, i looked at Jesus.

who are u looking to?  

 go for it. 

make mistakes, and learn. 

but dun make the same mistakes too many times. 

dun blame the circumstances for the mistakes.. 

take the circumstances by prayer and proper administration.. "

a friend taught me all these. cool.