when your mind just cant shut up

woo! what a hectic week.

went out with...
luwei and kenneth yeo on mon to the christian warehouse thingy.
s02 and cal on tues, just eat together.
s02 on wed to sentosa.
luwei and 'gang' on thurs to study and celebrate esther's birthday.
the 'gang' and media on fri to celebrate esther's and junze's birthday.

enjoy hanging out with these friends.

yesterday was crazy. blindfolded esther from her house to lot1. lol! on the way trying to settle media stuffs. =P

today was good too. supposed to wake up early to give morning calls. end up i overslept. managed to only wake huat up. eh... celebrate celebrate at esther's house, then at lot1 with junze. went slack around at the arcade. then zhaolun, huat, regina and me went over to regina's house first, where huat cooked for us. lol! this was the 1st time someone else besides my maid and family cooked for me. wow! and it had to be a guy. shocked, in doubt. lol! hmm.. but famous cooks tend to be guys huh. uhh... the food was okay ba. (HUAT, YOU FORGOT DESERT! LOL!) yupp. he made appetizer, main course, then supposedly desert, laid the table, then went to bed. lol! oh oh, regina's sister came back in time to see huat cook too. her sister seems like a fun person. =) then the rest came, watch 'bu neng shuo de mi mi', then left, cos sis got piano. woke huat up the 2nd time today, i guess he was late?

got really quiet. i became like that even before the rest came. nothing happened, and i wasn't really that tired. when i'm tired, i talk rubbish, i dont keep quiet. i just had nothing to say. did wanna just talk rubbish, but hmm... yea. i just had nothing to say. so kept quiet, which led to sian-ness.
it's really dangerous when you keep your mouth shut and the only noise made is by your brain.

yea, it tends to lead to negativity and sorts. worse, spiritual attacks. that's why the bible says it's important to guard our hearts and minds. these are vital areas that the devil attacks. and if he succeeds, boy you're in trouble.

yea, that's how knowledge gives false spirituality.
but i'm proud to say i didnt kena any attacks.

how about this? have you ever heard of one-sided friendships? we've definately heard of one-sided love relationships, but how about friendships? do such exist? i think so, 'cause i think i'm facing one. lol! nah, not me, a friend of mine who shall not be named. it takes 2 hands to clap. my thinking had always been this: even if your friend is passive, you should just take the initiative. but when it really happens to you, i guess it's hard to say. i know, you'll just feel as if you're giving yourself to that friend, being very thick-skinned, going forward as if you 2 had been really close friends. and you'll just think,'if you wanna be that way, fine! then i'll be passive too. maybe we just can't be the good friends i thought we could be.'

oh wells. what can i say? let go and let God girl. no point thinking so much. let ignore and let things go naturally. i'm sure things will turn out fine! =) i hope.




invisibility.
significant, not.
just acquaintance.