trust

thank God for the many many people who gave me the advices that i need. pastor daniel, sister wanping, huat, kenneth, kenni, elvin, erjie, etc...

even mum and dad had been really supportive. and huiting mummy, cal dearie. they've been great. =D

i've make up my mind. like what kenneth said(i dont know exactly what he said but it's something like that), we gotta take the 1st step and go the way, God will guide. and i've chosen that step i wanna take. God also assured me that wherever i set foot on, that's the land He has for me.

trust Him and He will make my path straight.

denial

didnt wanna go bro's house today. didnt wanna go p.meeting today.

living in denial.

nightmare turned into reality.

whatever you say goes.

why force me?

praise be to Him

firstly, gotta thank some people.
junwen, edwin, baolong, aaron, michelle ng, calista, huiting, corina, jocelyn, evan, dianyong, zuyao, kenni, elvin, rebecca, jaclyn, muen, vidas, mr chia, ms joanna chan and most importantly GOD.

really touched at the way a couple of these guys cared for me. thanks guys, for being there to encourage me. even just a simple phrase, or a hug, or an sms, it meant so much.

oh ya, congrats, junwen, zuyao, fernando, cal, mich ng, serene wong, joce, corina, darren, and many many more.

I WILL STILL PRAISE HIM.

God, i need a direction, an assurance.

NY warriors!

cant think of a title, so randomly put 'NY warriors!' haha. but there's a meaning behind it kay? went for 2 days of ignite conference, tmr's the last day. the conference is really good. it was just what i needed. JC have been a great influence recently. have not been a good testimony in sch, have not been a reflector of His glory. but God used pastor joekim to ignite the fire in me once again. i was so on fire, i really wanna do something for Jesus in NY. yea, i left less than a month in NY, so i wanna make as big a difference there as possible. i wanna sow as many seeds as possible. whether or not i get to harvest them, it doesnt matter. i just dont wanna deprieve them of the Good News.

i smsed fernando and elysia, but to my surprise, fernando was the one who replied me and supported whatever i wanna do. as pastor joekim preached and share the many powerful testimonies, i began to think of what we can do in NY. i'm still praying about it, and i got fernando to pray too. then i began having ideas like calling ourselves the 'NY warriors', with the slogan, "here we come, the wave of Jesus' army!" cool right? lol! got so so many ideas! i wanna make a difference! i got ernest to join me too! probably asking emelyn and melissa if they wanna join us. hee! this is just so cool. gonna pray for more people, to make a greater impact in such a short time.

oh ya. i felt so guilty sia. i so scared the NY warriors thing wont last. like that in fuhua. we were so passionate, we grew, we evangelised. but we allowed the devil's attacks to bring us down. blah! HATE SATAN! when i heard the nan chiau testimony, i cried. really so so guilty. the things we did were so so similar! prayer meetings, street e, etc. the only difference was how we dealt with the devil. rah!

lalala~ had a fun week. esp thurs! celebrated hengsiong's birthday during common lunch break. then watch eric play guitar. went to crash CJ with junwen. lol! but he like totally dont want me to go? dont care, i tagged along anyway. hee! met edwin there. CJ so small? lol! i dont like ba. then the 3 of us went down to JJ. the journey there was so embarrassing! we saw yefeng on the bus. that was not the embarrassing part. the embarrassing part was when i slept on the bus. junwen woke me up, then i ask him i sleep that time look like how? got sleep until v ugly not? then he said i slept until mouth open. -.- blah! but JJ was really fun. played captains ball with papa, donut and a few fhsJJ people. haha. fun fun. then went to tour their sch. their sch quite big. the nicest rooms were the leaders' room and the gaming room. lol! then went over to field to see junwen, edwin and aaron play soccer. so funny, we cheered, joked and 3 girls took junwen's number? lol! oh ya, their synthetic field rocks!! =p yea! we're going to FUHUA JC aka JJC after jae! lol!! lalala~

next week games day! woots! o's results!! double woots!! =D

1sr week lecture

been with OG in 1st week. i'm beginning to be attached to OG le. but next week we gonna split in to our own classes? blah!

lectures kinda boring, yet fun. okay, i'm a study person. =p played throughout econs and chi. i need an econs tuition teacher le. hee! it's crap la. oops! i'm not done with tutorial worksheets! =p

most prob going back CO. but CO practice timings sucks... wed 6-8pm, sat 9am-1pm.

blah! might be joining touch rugby. for those who know me well, you'll know i'm not a sports person. i'm joining it in case CO cmi, at least got a backup. and i dont even know what touch rugby is about... but my timetable super good for rugby trainings. hee! scared leh, dont dare join touch rugby, but kinda wanna join. hee! weird weird! =p

tmr got church, gotta wake up early for PNW practice with kenni and serene. then got media at 12. blah! packed. lalala~

NYJC orientation 1

Trad dance
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EMFfMxpayi0

30th dance

NYJC.

woots. finally have the time to slack slack.

last week had 3 days orientation. not bad. fun. hee! 1st day was games in sch, sub combi talk. 2nd day went sentosa, nearly met gid choo. 3rd day was the high-est, craziest day. esp disco night. crazy! mass dance - 30th dance and trad dance, fun fun. hee!

lectures start today. hmm. our timetable quite nice. hee! end early, got enough breaks. hee! i was crazy today. was... randomly went sp with junwen and yizhe for lunch. lol! crazy. but i felt really uncomfortable later, so became kinda emo. stomach upset for some reason, but not wanna go toilet kind.

been meeting junwen every morning and going home with him and yizhe everyday. yupp!

junwen dont wanna go back ny after pae. cos of the journey. he rather go jj. hmmm. i kinda think i might be going back. tho elvin had been discouraging me to do so. but i think it's quite okay leh. whatever junwen said makes sense la. if we were to go back after jae, we gotta join a cca, then we'll reach home only at 9+ 10pm after cca. it's crazy. but ziyi and rongjie, they have been doing that. i dont see why not. i rather go a better jc.

but still i wanna go where God wants me to go. is it ny? i'm still praying about it. rah!

so so many changes this year! in church, in sch... God had really add on to me a lot. small group media, sch...

but ny kinda... hmm... the people use phrases like "oh my God", "damn", etc. yuck, but influencing. i gotta really make a stand God. praying hard.

and i really want an answer from Him. is ny part of His plan? i dont wanna miss whatever He has for me. i'm desperate.