just another weekend

woohoo! busy busy hol! hee! it's only 2 days of hols and i'm already complaining.
nono! can't complain. hee!

last fri, crashed line night with shing, winnie, bernie, huimui, kim. lol! fun fun. randomly, coincidentally got to know qilong's fren! so fun! haha. i just anyhow dance with a camper, who happened to be from ycs, happened to be a councillor, happened to be a dbter, happened to be in oba(grace)'s lg, YONG YAO! i got really excited! lol!

sun went to see 1-WEEK-OLD BABY JOEANNE. gosh, she is cute!

yesterday, banni house comm interview. honestly, i dont wanna be house comm. too busy ar. lalala~ then went do project at je lib. yea, we got stuffs done! all our to-do-list are checked!! woohoo!! finally, for once, we're on schedule! =D

met mr sim today for pw consultation at imm. lol! yea, he said ours is okay, so far so good! woohoO! happy happy! =D met cal. end up spend only 1 hour studying, the rest of the time shopping, chatting, eating. loL! I LOVE MY DEARIE!





sat was most awesome of all. it was the best. God kinda like scolded me? whatever pastor said, i'm guilty of it. unknowingly, i've created an idol of my own, my 'modified' god.

i'm gonna rectify everything man! things are not gonna stay that way! i want the fire! i want the passion! i want the desperation! things are gonna change! watch out world! i'm coming back, stronger, and not alone... i'm with God!

deyan and sophia going radical conference! siang, tong and amanda not confirm... but i have faith! pray pray pray! =D

my niece who said SHE LOVE ME-FERLYN! =D

the kids! yea, i'm still a kid!! CLIFFORD, REEVE, FERLYN, SIS and ME!

DAJIE (cousin), FERLYN, SIS, ME and BABY JOEANNE!

BABY JOEANNE! what a precious creation loved by God.

cute pose! and she's smiling! =D

baby joeanne: I LOVE MY DADDY

baby joeanne: I LOVE MY MUMMY

SHING, WINNIE, ME!

us, after line night! =D

BERNIE!

BERNIE, WINNIE, ME, SHING!

our creation! cute eh! together with our fingers! CUTER! =X

from WINNIE to..... AHEM!

a picture speaks a thousand words.

campers

i love my campers.

LG7(line), LG6(cdayl), yuanching sec.

i know i'm loved by them.

missing you guys.

my life was changed.

these campers were the cause.

still the same

drained.

finally it's hols.

but the pressure's still there.

busy busy.

projects, church, sch work, leader.

busy busy.

DRAINED.

quiz

1. Do you wish to get married?
Duh~ i'm a girl, of course i want.

2. What is your favourite animal?
i like MOST!

3. Who is the person you trust the most?
trust MOST? God.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
I dont know. but i choose to have confidence in all i do, cos i have confidence in God!

5.If you have a dream to come ture,what would it be?
the WHOLE WORLD turn to Christ. 'and the truth shall set them free!'

6. Are you satisfied with yourself?
of cos! i am created fearfully and wonderfully in God's image!

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
God. life without Him... i cant imagine. it'll be scary.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
YES!

9. Have you broken someone's heart that he tried to commit suicide?
i'm not that influencial.

10. What do you like about yourself?
huh? everything? told you i have confidence in God and who God created me to be.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
love me (like duh.) and love God!

12. Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
OF COURSE!

13. Do you treasure your family?
OF COURSE!

14. What do you dislike the most?
sin! (tho i do sin. hey! i'm human too! i'm still learning to hate sin. =D)

15. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
uhh.. hope? i already have someone always there for me 24/7! yupp, my almighty God.

16. What do you regret most in life?
nah, i dont let regrets bother me. what's done cannot be undone.

17. What kind of friends do you hope to be in your friend's eye?
a good one of course! and a godly one too!

18. Do you love your friends?
YES!

19. Which date you like the most?
no specific. i love every day i live with God.

20.Why i sound so holy and religious and godly like ALL OF A SUDDEN? (my qns)
cos God sent a really really close fren to speak to me. it's been a long time since i hear from God and it feels really really good! i miss God. i miss the past where i was so close with God. He showed me the truth. and THE TRUTH HAVE SET ME FREE! thank God for CAL DEARIE and thank God for Himself! =X



can i not ask anyone else to do this? lol!
QILONG: DONE!

You light up my life

You called my name, reached out Your hand

Restored my life

And I was redeemed, the moment You entered my life

So it's with everything I am

I reach out for Your hand

The hope, the change the second chance I've gained

On You I throw my life, casting all my fears aside

How could greater love than this ever possibly exist

How could we live but not see

Your sacrifice, Your glory

You reign You reign

Over everything Lord You reign

With power and justice divine

Over everything Lord You reign

See now the King of glory

Love of God become my calling

Father I surrender

All I am to You forever

I took my troubles to the Lord;
I cried out to Him and He answered my prayer.
Rescue me, O Lord, from liars and from all deceitful people
I am tired of living among people who hate peace.
I search for peace but when I speak of peace, they want war!

Psalm 120:1-2, 6-7

Because the Sovereign Lord helps me,

I will not be disgraced.

Therefore, I have set my face like a stone, determined to do His will.

And I know that I will not be put to shame.

Isaish 50:7

We can make our own plans,

But the Lord gives the right answers.

People may be pure in their own eyes,

But the Lord examines their motives.

We can make our own plans,

But the Lord determines our steps.

Proverbs 16:1-2, 9

I love You, Lord;

You are my strength.

The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my saviour;

My God is my rock, in whom I find protection.

He is my shield, the power that saves me,

And my place of safety.

I called on the Lord, who is worthy of praise,

And He saved me from my enemies.

Psalm 18:1-3

As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God.
My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.

When can I go and meet with God?
My tears have been my food day and night,

These things I remember as I pour out my soul:

How I used to go with the multitude,

with shouts of joy and thanksgiving.

Why are you downcast, O my soul?

Why so disturbed within me?

Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him,

my Savior and my God.

By day the LORD directs his love,

at night his song is with me— a prayer to the God of my life.

Psalm 42

For we are to God the aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing.

2 Corinthians 2:15

media outing!

MEDIA MEDIA!!

lol! was a bit too high that night. no choice ar, i just came back from banni camp/sports day that day. lol! it's natural that i'm high. went pastamania for dinner. lol! then went warren to bowl. LOL! i throw face until cannot throw already. mich lo and i talked about guys in sch on the way to warren. lol! so joke! gotta exchange more info ya, mich! =X post the pics taken when i get them - all in muen's camera~ lol! =p

sat church. lol! i was still a bit crazy ar. made more noise in CG. lol! was on media duty. a bit messy ar, especially at the end of sermon. huat suddenly call me, i was like 'huh? why he call? not in church meh?' then he ask me on keyboard. i was like what keyboard? loL! and when i finally know what he talking about, i just hang the phone. lol! sorry ya, huat, too excited already. hee! =P

went to see 2-days-old baby joanne today. aww. she's sooooo small. loL! so fragile. it's so amazing how God creates us. from a sperm and an egg, to a zygote, to a fetus, to a baby, to a child, to a teen, to who i am today! took couple of pics too - all with dajie~ lol!=p

no wonder He is God and i am not!

random stuffs:
mine and zixin's bag! =P ADIDAS! it's not fake kay, ZIYI!

made by mdm seetow for the whole class!! so sweet right? love her!

DEYAN and me! lol! =D

YIXUAN and me! TODAY'S HER BIRTHDAY!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIXUAN!!

sorry ya, didnt go the celebration. )= I STILL LOVE YOU! =X

octopus (given by junjie(chanj) and i cant remember who on my bday last year) and heart (given by regina phua on valentines' day!)

BANNISTER HOUSE CAMP '08

BLUE IS THE COLOUR, BLUE BLUE'S THE COLOUR!

gosh!! we were like one of the craziest, most-bonded class - 08S02!!!
o ah o ah o ah o, 2 ah 2 ah 2 ah 2, o ah 2, 2 ah o, o2 o2 ALL THE WAY!!
i screamed like crazy, scream until throat super pain la. miraculously, i dont have sorethroat, didnt lose my voice. and i didnt kena any muscle ache. woohoO!!

didnt bathe last night. lol! what's the difference man? i'm already like soaking wet from the water games. WHAT'S A CAMP WITHOUT WATER GAMES RIGHT? loL! after i bathe, i was like telling winnie I SO CHIO. lol! one of the councillors, jerrald, heard sia. lol! so joke. then from then onwards he CALL ME CHIO BU! loL!! thanks, i know it's true~ =x

woo~ being a camper again is like SO FUN! no saikang jobs, debriefs in the middle of the night, scoldings from mr chua and mr leow. =P lol! lalala~

one of the most memorable moments was night walk with shing, yixuan, winnie, walter, pick-up-poo and hamster. loL! so EXCITING!! =x


oh oh! i decided to withdraw from westzone camp. yea. hee!
sorry kim.





been learning a lot throughout camp. God taught me stuffs too. learning to be who i am for God. learning to love like God. learning learning learning. woohoo! fulfilling! =D



NOBODY CAN BE A BETTER WANZI THAN WANZI HERSELF!

busy weekend

woo! after banni camp, went to church. so scared i was late, plus i gotta teach esther, so cabbed down. loL!

everything was... hmmm... okay at first. then you came, not looking okay. yea, even esther could tell, so i told her to just pray. well, i guess i made you more angry when i made a terrible mistake. it's like fundamental, yet i was too complacent. you got so fed-up and ignored me when i wanted to take over. rah! i was terribly affected. wanted so much to run to the toilet and cry. but cannot, cannot leave esther there alone. rubbish la. i sms-ed you and was ignored again. forget it. it got worse when you took me as invisible, you acted as if telling me you rather do it yourself than let me do. doubt you realised it, but when i cried, it was because of everything that happened. forget it.

lalala~ well, things got better in CG. yea, affected, but didnt wanna let this affect CG, affect small group. rushed off immediately after church to NTU. woohoo! talentime!

dad fetched me to the auditorium and i met zhaomian and my dear dear frens, RADI and KARI! lalala~ during interval, showed radi who deyan is and radi thinks he's good looking? loL! he kinda is la. =p crapped, talked, took pics. then went in for 2nd half. the whole this was okay la. especially when YIHAO sang, it was so beautiful! oh oh! saw camper JOVINSON! lol! fun fun! =p

after that, wanted to wait for dad to fetch me back, then dad suddenly called ask me go eat supper with frens.. lol! rare, 1st time! haha. so i went out with cal, huiting, chengyong, kokleong and edward for supper. met benny, christoper that gang. 1st time so close talk to him? lol! happy happy, we not as paiseh as before already. hee! =D

went out on sun with dajie and her kids. haha. shopped at bugis. seriously tired la. lol!

slept late last night. rah! some people dont need go sch all the way till thurs. slacker! had bannister leaders meeting. crazy la. haha.. that stupid 'exciting exciting' guy again. lol! wanted to go eat steamboat with luwei their gang. rah! fun fun being a banni leader.. lalala~

gotta chiong tutorials, study for math lecture test. suddenly so scared i cant be promoted sia. i screwed up my spa today. sobs!

bannister leader camp '08

woohoo! bannister leaders camp! =D

friday
shall not elaborate on sch. loL! rushed home get camp stuffs. late for bio tutorial. lalala~ then QILONG came! woohoo! rushed down to look for him. lol! so crazy.

went to rugby match. saw the NY ruggers!! gosh! the 1st guy i saw was TERRENCE, my ah gong!! then my bro, ZUYAO, then ogl, ERIC! so excited!!! but didnt see joshua, tedson and dominic. lol! missed NY rugby days, tho i pon a lot of trainings. loL!

went back sch, dinner.. lol! kinda weird. our group quite quiet? or rather i was quiet, no bernie crap with me la. lol! SSS(song singing session) was crazy! all the craps. mr leow calls that 'bastard' one another. yea, sounds crude. loL!

saturday
woohoo! one of my fav morning PTs. lol! fun fun. sang some army songs. lol! reminds me of DADDY GID. lol! then had dance, games, to drag time, cos outside raining, cant play wet games. haha. and i was sabo-ed to dance with rayner? heng, many others were sabo-ed up too. lalala!

i wasn't the only one being sabo-ed. theresa!! woohoo!! dancing queen!! sooooo exciting!! =p

hey, i only thought rayner was cute. lol! so paiseh! i dont want another benny incident to repeat. lol! there are like so many other guys(~13) who i think is cute, good-looking too la. loL! he really is cute la. wasted can't stay on for water games, no chance to interact yet. lol!! nono, got, got dance with him, then her there 'exciting exciting' and made me dance wrongly. lol! so malu. stupid guy. nevermind, still got next week's banni house camp! wahaha!!
gosh!! i'm rubbish-ing!

lalala~ going church, duty! yay!! media!! then talentime! lol! i dont know how to go ntu and i'm going there in my media tee. who cares? RADI will be there! woohoo!! =D

crazily busy may

bannister leader camp - 9th to 10th may (fri and sat)
gotta leave early, rush home wash up, rush to church.
media duty.
then rush to ntu after church for talentime finals.
bannister house camp - 15th to 16th (thurs and fri)
sports day - 16th
west zone camp (not confirmed. there's a chance i'll withdraw) - 22nd to 24th (thurs to sat).
might be late for church.
radical conference - 30th and 31st.
not forgeting the tests and spa i have during the weeks.

rah!

busy busy busy. daddy gid will be sian if he knew i'm a bannister leader. lol! =p
lalala~

aL .::. k e r n - ni .::. operation ready date .::. d r e a m - i n g says:
the false assumption of busyness close us away frm ppl..

<3

there is no one else for me

i love You endlessly

another weekend gone.

great sat, great movie -THE SECOND CHANCE. got back my 1st love.
i dont wanna stand on sinking sand anymore...
JESUS... THE ROCK ON WHICH I STAND. THE ROCK ON WHICH I TRUST.

went to buddy haogies sat morning! finally know where it is. lol!! with CALISTA DEARIE and VIDAS MAMA. loL! how i love them! =D
then had some miscommunications with some people. got really pissed. haha. kinda obvious. i wasn't the only one pissed. haha. DADDY GID pulled me to the back and ask me what's wrong. hmmm.. everytime he does that, there must really be something wrong. lol! this time i'm smart enough, i tell him a bit? at least i said a bit and there's a chance there's someone praying for me. the last few time similar stuffs happened, i didnt tell him anything, i end up 'wounded' seriously by the devil. okay, end up everyting went well... got back my 1st love. continue cellgroup, etc.

my sister's 1st day of media duty. rah! lalala~ helped out a bit with the cd sales cos davin is left alone. hee!

today, supposed to be studying.. got geog test, chem spa. and i procrastinated the whole day. lol! rah! i'm so so dead. praying praying. lol! pray for me too? =p

tmr's mon already. so fast. oh oh.. i wanna go the june renewal camp with cal! lol! we'll see how it goes ya, scared mummy unhappy. hee!

radical conference!! can't wait can't wait! hee! media media. i'm beinging to love media. lalala~


ESTEE!! if you happen to pop by here again.... just wanna say i was really happy yesterday!! just so so long didnt see you around and didnt talk to you. hee! and happier when you said you do pop by my blog! wahaha!! i know you love me!! =X

only God is God

And the pain falls like a curtain

On the things I once called certain

And I have to say the words I fear the most

I just don’t know

And the questions without answers

Come and paralyze the dancer

So I stand here on the stage afraid to move

Afraid to fall, oh, but fall I must

On this truth that my life has been formed from the dust

God is God and I am not

I can only see a part

Of the picture He's painting

God is God and I am man

So I'll never understand it all

For only God is God

And the sky begins to thunder

And I’m filled with awe and wonder

Til the only burning question that remains

Is who am I

Can I form a single mountain

Take the stars in hand and count them

Can I even take a breath without God giving it to me

He is first and last before all that has been

Beyond all that will pass

Oh, how great are the riches

Of His wisdom and knowledge

How unsearchable

For to Him and through Him and from Him are all things

So let us worship before the throne

Of the One who is worthy of worship alone

God Is God by Steven Curtis Chapman

His plans are not totally revealed to us. we only see part of the picture and sometimes, we just choose to disobey, to not do what we're told, just cos we dont know what's waiting for us in the end. stop being so self-centered, looking to only our own interest. God has a far greater plan than what we can see. God just wants the best for us. just do what we're told and in the end, we'll definately gain in unexpected ways.
For only God is God.

media!

ARGH!! I'M REALLY DOING MEDIA DUTY WITH MY SIS. loL! stupid muen! =p

so fun sia. got new members, finally can shake leg like huat did. loL! when jieying they all came in he ask me teach. now my turn see jieying teach people. wahaha!!

radical conference coming up!! cant wait! =p woohoo! =D




CALISTA: you changed your blog ma. then lazy link back le la. at least i still do pop by your blog and tag right! =P hee!
LUWEI: lol! ehh. i thought i did link you lo. hee! =p
TEDSON: TEDSON!! lol! yea, i still remember you kay! wahaha.
QILONG: nice one man. loL! that means i think of george quite frequently also la. yuck! =p
SHING: of cos.... think of your huayi campers and octo guy. lol! really la... lets go play kay? hee!
KENNETHYEO: LOL! of cos it's good. you posted it also right? lol! junze got it from you, i got it from him. hee!