pictures!

my fav camper - QILONG!! a really sweet FRIEND too. hee!

a couple of LG8 campers. woohoo!

the sports sch guy who said he'll remember me cos of my sports-sch-cluelessness. LOL!

ah! the love birds in my LG. hee!

my LG's e-web. lalala~

yes, DEYAN, we know you have a sad life. LOL!

see how tired jialong is. that was during family meeting even before camp. haha!

that was during the campers' 1st night. we were busy making the banner thingy and discussing LG presents, dance, etc. for me and deyan, we were busy eating la. =P

family 2 gays. deyan, jialong and yewsiang. hee!

back track to 3 weeks ago. LINE camp LG7!! woohoo!! =D missed them la. hee!

LG7! we rock!! =D

LG7 outing to celebrate delwin's birthday. lalala!

a couple of family 2 peeps.

LG7!! facs + campers. hee! to DARREN: i still remember you and all of us miss you!! =D

another sat

yupp. i choose to trust God has a word for me. He did! but my heart kinda hardened. still waiting for that encounter. haha. i was so in camp mood la. helped cleared cellgroup rubbish. when a newcomer went out talk on phone, i followed him. lol! ma chiam camp sia. then everyone sit down i still standing. then i realised i'm out of camp le. dont need make sure everyone sit down, everyone's safe, etc. lol!! so weird. =p managed to talk a little to derrick. woohoo! stupid act blur guy. haha! sms-ed qilong. that crazy camper. loL! still in camp mood also. keep saying how much he love us. cute. lol! at least 1 life was impacted. hopefully many more were.

dots. i'm still blogging about camp. this should be about a sat in church. haha.

oh oh! i served today. yupp. projection as usual. talked to vidas. wrote jeff and huat cards for coming china mission trip. hmm.. today's atmosphere a bit weird. hee! nevermind. cellgroup kinda pathetic too. but i'll still pray!

woots! i'm in TOUGH CLUB! =p and i really really wanna be a prayer warrior. pray pray pray!!

tmr gotta pay respect to grandma. sucks la. dont life seeing so many peopl bow down to devil. but God said when 1 person saved, the whole household saved ya! will be looking forward to that day!! =D

CD-AYL

Cultural Diplomacy Asian Young Leaders (CDAYL) Convention!

24 march (mon)
after sch, shing and leon came my house bathe, slack, eat. haha! we missed family meeting. we were irresponsible la. =p then by the time we reach sch, we were late. haha cant really remember what we did that night already, but it wasn't a long night. =D 1st night in JJ. gosh! JJ's becoming my 2nd home. lol! kinda getting used to camping there. =P

25 march (tues)
woohoo. opening ceremony of CDAYL. meizhu and i were attached to yuanching sec. woah! that day changed my whole camp. got to know a couple of campers. the ycs people really made my day. got to interact with ycs' student i/c and the sport sch's student i/c. lol!

talk about sports sch 1st. i didnt know anything about sports sch la. i'm a sports sch nooblet. loL!! then i start asking the sports sch student i/c. he is nice enough to educate me. but he went around spreading to his sch mates that there's a fac who dont know anything about sports sch. so malu-ating!!

now ycs. got to know the student i/c qilong. like him a lot, as a fren, as a camper. LOL! really. he's a nice guy with lots of leadership post sia. student council chairman, dragon boat vice-captain. woohoo! lol! really love this bunch of campers. hee! but they weren't camping that night. the students went back sch, and we went back to out camp! lol!

had loads of family time that day. practiced family dance, play mrt, etc. oh.. had a dry run too, where we jst ran from place to place. hall, pe porch, hall. lol! had a games trail that night. woah. so cold la. and so fun. lol! we get to play like campers. woohoo! =P

26 march (wed)
yeah!! campers campers!! we recieved our campers in hall. was a boring day la. had a rah-rah session. then talks talks talks. i really tried being a good fac and stay awake. but i subconciously fell asleep... i really had no control over myself. lol!! then there was a bit of mess at LT5 during cultural talk. haha. and our family too, kena scolded for making hanisah cry. yup. cant be bothered. lol!!

had rah-rah with apple and wei jie, 2 seniors. and finally, JJ's own programmes! night games!! woohoo! i finally kinda know how to play night games. cos the last time i played as a camper, i had no idea what was going on. ogls ask me run then i run. lol! line camp i was a gamer, didnt get to play. this time, as a fac, i know what's going on! woohoo! LOl!!

song singing session(SSS). haha. tio scolding. any normal fac would have cried. i'm normal and i'm a fac. so i did cry la. i tried to control in front of campers, but difficult sia, when you already so tired, then tio scolding. =( haha. that night debrief also kena scolded. sian. lol! i guess that's normal for a fac ba. should have seen it coming. should have... but i didnt. lol!! oh oh! and i didnt bathe that day!! woots! we met for family meeting that night to decide lg present and family dance. haha. till qutie late. cant really remember the time. only remember having 2-3 hours sleep. loL!!

27 march (thurs)
morning pt. haha. everyone so tired. nevermind that. then mass dance early in the morn. time passed so slowly la. i mass dance until tired sia. haha!

telematch! haha! i and jialong teach them to cheat. "we cheat yesterday, we cheat the day before, and we gotta cheat today like we never did before!" LOL!! so funny. haha. then got all wet. some people thought i was a camper cos i was in my dark tee, not JJ tee. haha. nevermind. then we kena scolded again. this time by PC. dont wish to elaborate why. lol!

kinetic warfare!!! not as fun la.. uh, also dont wish to elaborate. partially cos got other sch stuffs using field, we cant spray water and do whatever we like. so sian. loL!!

then another wash-up time. lol! i decided not to bathe. just changed into cdaly tee. haha. then we got another rah-rah by the dearly missed delwin!! loL! really missed working him la. then we gotta leave early for family dance. haha. left kaihui alone take care lg and she's sick, so end up we combined with other lg ba. haha. the rehearsal was fun. hee! we were starving tho, cos we didnt eat dinner that night. and cos of that, i couldnt eat my med. -.- it was that time that i got so stressed, i look at my campers i wanna cry already. lol! but must control in front of campers sia, so i didnt break down la. haha. even daddy(szeting), leon, etc could tell i was stressed. i must have scared the campers like amanda did to me. loL!!

finally, LEADERS' NIGHT! haha! woots! our family dance so funny la. i and jeanle screwed up a little. haha. cos of that stupid umbrella. hee! but cant deny i had fun! =p mass danced with qilong, yupp! one of my fav campers. hee! the another song singing. stood beside him too. haha. kinda purposely la. cos closer to them ma. if can i would have stood with facs. but must take care campers. so take care of the campers i closer to la! =p

debreif was short that night. la. cannot tahan. bathed. haha! did lg present till we fell asleep outside hall. haha! and i drooled in my sleep! =p but woke up half-way. wanted to continue, but i dont even know what i writing la. i was sleep-writing. lol!! decided to just go to bed. it was already like 3plus. so that night only about 2 hour sleep. -.- haha. lucky next day, last day is emo day. loL!!

28 march (fri)
emo day. woots. everything was okay la. e-web, etc. the usual. then had a short song singing again, with some short interview thingy by mr chua with 2 campers and hanisah. sat beside qilong again. this time was coincidental. lol! fate la fate la. LOL!! finally broke down while hanisah was sharing (that does not mean i'm on "shing's" side. LOL~). oh, another thing i like about qilong is his grip. really frim and encouraging. haha. he cried too! =P

okay lunch. hectic again... cos of the muslim prayer stuffs. -.- crap la. haha. ran all about for them. but after lunch, we facs got to slack for more than an hour la. talked with deyan they all.. lol!! i'm still siding deyan! =P went to give out lg gift. haha. then last few mins of our break before we need assemble to gather the latern making campers, i went over talk to qilong. haha. took a pic with him la. also got talk to my own cmaper. hee! gave email, etc. haha. then ran over lt3 where campers supposed to gather. went crazy outside let3. loL!! the 6 gays(yewxiang, yewtong, jialong, deyan, leon and another guy) took pics. and leon... ahem! LOL!! in lt3, for some reason, faizal began singing. i was high la. then i start singing out of tune and i dont care! =p loL! took more pics with a couple of lg8 people. yupp, qilong, derrick they all. haha.

finally... dismissal. no more campers, no more stress. haha. kinda relaxing. =p hee! but at side gate there, i cried again. kinda badly. many thought i cant bear to see campers leave. nah! =p lol!! just feel... hmm.. how should i put it? unappreciated? lol! forget it. went back lt3. area cleaning, briefing. then went home! HOME SWEET HOME!

leon and shing stayed over. i slept early and embarrassed myself, again. -.- blah! tired tired!




really wanna thank my fellow facs, jialong, yaya, kaihua, hui yan and jeanle. haha! gotta thank shing and leon too. shing really took care of me la. leon help me in quite a lot too. mostly, keeping stuffs for me. LOL! oh oh and deyan, yewxiang, xintong, amanda, etc. you guys are really great la. love you guys so much!

and i'm guilty of not involving God in this camp. i've beem doing everything on my own la. no wonder i'm stressed. i'm even more guilty when i know derrick does his qt every night. gosh! i still choose to trust God has something for me. for those who have been worrying about me cos of my previous post, i'm sorry. haha. i'm okay already. waiting for that encounter with God. but while waiting, i'll not sit back and nothing. yupp! i know God had been and will be here with me! =D woots! i have my God-shaped hole filled. not fully filled, but i choose to trust that it will be and it can be fully filled. hee!

in a mess

gosh! i'm beginning to feel like a non-christian. that's definately not good news. camp camp, homework, disciples, cellgroup accounts, etc... i've not been doing a good job.

too busy. busier than i should be. and this busy-ness is definately distracting me away from the things of God.

what's there for me to do besides praying? i really got homework to do. i really got test to study for.

i just dont seem to have the time, have to feel. i'm so messed up.

LINE camp 08

finally back from camp. woah. i realised how fortunate i was as a camper. being a fac is no easy job. but i cant deny i did have fun.

it's my 1st time as a fac after all. =D

my LG7 was really hyper. they displayed really good leadership qualities.

and i think i did a bad job. thank God. i had so many other facs i could rely on... delwin, christopher, egoh, etc. they are the experienced ones there to support us everytime we became blur. really got to thank them. and my other LG7 facs, yongqiang, jialong, jocelyn, yaya, and dear family head, kennedy. there are stuffs i wanted to say to you guys, but didnt have to chance to. sorry. sorry for being such a noob, so blur and of little help. LG7 wouldnt have made it without you guys. sorry delwin, for the disappointment and to christopher, sorry for being such a bad games attache. i know i didnt do good for games. probably of no help too. my best achievement in games is the pool at the long jump pit. but it rained and it was not put to use. to practically, i didnt almost nothing as a games attache. sorry.

oh oh.. i wanna thank deyan and amanda and yew xiang for helping take LG7 during night games when none of us could be around. thanks. =)

if you ask me, i would think o2 was better. CDAYL, one more to go.

LINE camp... no matter how tired, we gotta smile, we gotta cheer, we gotta be higher than our campers. yupp, as usual, i cried. 1st was when delwin talked to us. i was filled with guilt la. then e-web. i began missing my campers. and mr chua reminded me of something i nver thought of...

i'm sure compared to o2, we had gained lesser, we had experienced lesser. but whatever, it's my 1st camp as a fac. i dont know how to put this in words. i dont know what i'm saying anymore.

dedications

dedicated to NYJC O1 OG23. the 1st time i sang this song, the 1st thing i thought of is you guys. i miss you guys lots. =)

Strangers before
A world apart
We bearly noticed one another
Till angels of fate
In this heavenly place
Brought us together
Through joy and laughter

I hold you close
I hold you near
It may not be forever
And when i have to let you go
My heart it hurts me so

You turned around
You walked away
And tears flow down my cheeks
And moments turned into memories
To memories we'll relive

this is to JJC LINE camp LG7. i'll miss you guys. tho the bonds between me and you guys are not strong. this is my 1st camp as a fac after all. thanks for making everything happen. =)

Tonight we remember
The moments spent together
The joy and the laughter that we shared

Tonight we will cherish
The times that we spent here
Because it's the only time we have

Take our hands and see our smiles
This is where we all belong
I'll remember the times we spent together
Until my last december
Tonight

this is to all my friends, especially JJC O2 OG11 OGLs. i know you guys have fostered great bonds with family 3. i know how it feels. it's like me stepping into JJC from NYJC. we all gotta move on and accept reality.

As we walk into a brand new day
Let the sun shine in our face
No matter what they say
Come what may
We are here to stay

No matter how tough it may be
Remember you can hold on to me
Your hand i will never let go
Lets fulfil the dreams behold

confidence

i have confidence because i know the God i love, i know the God i'm serving and i know who i am in God.

i want the power of God to flow through me. i want to stand before my generation on behalf of God. i want to stand before God on behalf of my genertation. i want to stand in the gap!

nope, no way am i gonna do this all by myself. i have God! and my fellow bros and sis in Christ to support one another! =D



oh oh! xiao coke is going line camp! cool~ LOL!

camps!

orientation2 2008 - OG11

christoper. one of my ogls.

bai feng and kiatwah. lol. kiat wah always reminds me of bao long. equally zhuai and alway looking at girls. haha. but he was nice enough to send me back to my block after facilitators' meeting last night, together with zhen chiuan and jacky. =D

woohoo! OG11. =D

that's LINE camp LG7. hee!

blah! i'll be gone for another camp from tmr to wed. =D

loves

i'm loved by vidas. the rose is his super be-lated valentine's day gift. LOL!

one of my beloved disciples, sheena. cute way of playing her guitar. hee!

this day

this day, or rather, yesterday, i made a critical decision. the decision that will change my life.
and i am accountable to no one but God.

this i want to remember. i want to remember this day.

i no longer want to be who i am today.

WWJD. WWsD.

transformed lives impact lives.

God, i will stand up for You before my generation.
i will stand up for my generation before You.
i will stand in the gap and be the difference.
i will look out for where You are working and join You.
i will make a difference in my world. it may be just 1 or 2 person, it may be my whole gang of frens, it may be my OG, it may be my class, it may be my ex-schoolmates. whoever it is, it's Your will that i will follow.
i will be dedicated to Your will.


not just words, but actions.

i want You to look at my life and a smile appears on Your face.

i dont want to anger You, dont want to grieve You like the world does.
because i'm in the world, not of the world.

and for Your cause, things are going to change.