mission trip 2007

did i mention elvin's my team leader again?

tomorrow's the day!! lol! and i wont be back until 5dec(wed)! MISS ME!!

i'm kinda excited. only started packing yesterday. gosh, will i miss out something?

i gotta admit, i'm kinda scared la, especially when kenni's my ATL. he's fun, but strict too. now, i'm super scared of accidentally doing the wrong stuffs. but kenni's actually quite nice? i forgot to bring offering bags and i thought i'm like so dead, but kenni didnt say anything. phew!

9 days later, i'll be bloggin my testimonies! woots! cant wait to see God work! =D

yupps! i'll spend the rest of the night preparing my heart for the coming 9 days!

God, empower me!

thank You God

thank God for bringing me through this day.

i was super scared to go for training today. but God blessed me. i hung on to His promises and indeed He was there for me.

everything was ok. until the skits part where i got really scared again. but as much as i think i didn't do well, there were no comments for anyone.

thank God for calista, anonymous, serene and sheena for the encouragements.

the attacks begins

i'm discouraged.

sister(wanlin): jie, you know what? i'm involved in practically every skit!
me: you know what? i'm not involved in practically every skit.

besides that, today's projection was a mess.

then elvin pulled me to one side to tell me to interact more with other team members other than just serene.

i wasn't feeling okay. elvin just made it worse.

suddenly, i kinda dont quite like the thought of going for trainings.

i'll be praying no team members, especially elvin, sees this post. i just wanna vent my feelings.

please dont come and irritate me with the "pray against it", "why are you feeling that way" craps. i dont want to end up talking on the phone with elvin or having him pull me aside to talk to me.

i know fairly well it's attacks. it's the devil's attacks. just let me be and pray for me. that's all i need. i'll be praying myself. i wont let it affect my performances in the team and all. i know what i'm gonna have to do and i'm gonna do it. i'm gonna interact, i'm gonna give my best. i'm still gonna do it.

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME BE.

mission trip training

blah! i didnt realise how near mission trip is until i saw serene's blog! 6 more days? that's like less than a week! i'm like so not prepared for it. it feels like i still have 2 more weeks before mt! =p

yesterday was my 1st training! seriously, i expected myself to be shy and quiet. i end up talking so much... and kena bullied again. lol! main reason due to me being in same team with serene, gid and elvin again. lol! hmm.. i think i gotta talk more with huiwen and xiaoye. yupp.. i didnt talk much to them. haha. fun fun. and i managed to catch up! mainly due to most stuffs i learnt before last year. haha. lalala~

mission mission missions. lalala~ wonder what God has placed in store for me! i'm lovin' it.

ohhh.. i submitted my pae(1month JC thingy) form! woots!! 13 dec- the day the results of application will be announced!!

in anticipation!

holidays!

yo yo yo!! i'm back!! feels good to be home.

O'S IS OFFICIALLY OVER 1 WEEK AGO!!
time to go crazy and party! but God will still be in the centre. hee!

gosh! i missed so so many trainings! hope i can fit well with team? we going NONG KAI!

taiwan's like super fun. haha.. shopping!! bought many stuffs sia. and the food are yummy. had a crazy time with my family and cousin. lol. will post some pics next time. hee!

i'm going 1month JC! but i like dont know which to choose? i got 12 choices and i'm supposed to fill them all up? and the cut offs are like so low!! i'm only qualified for v little jCs. sian-ed. but i'm excited! i dont know why. i only have 3 days to submit the application. blah. and i'm like super indecisive! how? God, how? lol.

got training tomorrow. excited!! lol. cos i've not been to any trainings before nia. i a bit scared scared. but i know God has a plan.

I CHOOSE TO TRUST YOU, GOD.

saturday! =D

it's another sat!!

sats are forever like the bestest, fun-est, enthu-est day of the week.

and today, I ACKNOWLEDGED 2 PAPAS!! lol!! i shall rephrase, I ACKNOWLEDGED 2 DADDYS!! cos papa reminds me of media stuffs. haha. that which i screwed and became the joke. lol!

daddy SEAN LOW and daddy GIDEON CHOO!!!
sean's nice enough to acknowledge me. he even gave me his atm card and his PIN to like draw money? loL! dont know that card is real or fake, dont know inside got money one not. lol!
gid's the devil!! he wont acknowlege me la!!
now all that i'm lacking is my mummys! actually, i know daddy sean's 'wife' and daddy gid's 'wife' la. but can't go up to them and call them mummy. too weird. LOL!

oh oh! zhiyu joined gid's daddy gang! and joel formed the new mummy gang! yupps, pricillia calls zhiyu daddy and joel mummy. how sick? and i became the innocent mummy?? nono!! i'm too young to be mummy! and gid's my dad!! haha.

now the media joke. muen and kenneth gave us the MOTOROLA GP328 workshop. haha! it's a walkie la. i dont even think i'll use much of it? haha.
"roger!"
dots! muen gave us tasks and we're like supposed to communicated through the comm set. i think i failed. i teamed with michlo. haha. and i was blur. they asked me for sis wanping's license plate? firstly, i dont even know what's a license plate. just say car plate number la! loL! and i forgot what does "K" represent. so i thought about it for like super long and was erm-ing away on the comm set then i suddenly send over a "KILO". lol! i think muen and kenneth were like laughing away? haha. i know junze and zhaolun were. zhenke was made to count fishes! haha. and during debrief he was like asking "why do i have to count fish? i dont know the black one counted as big fish not. later count fish again ar?" -.-

muen made us strip and assemble the comm set. he did radio check with me and i like totally forgot what's radio check. so i answered some funny answer like "roger", "send". lol! we were even made to take theory test? out of 20 marks? i think i'm gonna fail. lol!! oh ya, and why do the word 'papa' remind me of media? cos we 'papa' represents 'P' in air language or whatever you call that. lol!

i'm from YANKEE INDIA media of CHARLIE OSCAR SEIRRA BRAVO TANGO! (definately, i referred to my notebook. hee!)

bespectacled

blah! got fustrated today. sis dont know how to plan time, cg peeps discouraging me to go poly. I WANNA GO POLY! but of cos, more importantly, i wanna go where God wants me to go. i once thought God want me go ACJC. then after some thinking, i decided i wanna go poly. then today, gid asked me to go ACJC. God, are you trying to tell me something? when i went down to taka, i met my uncle who works as a lecturer in SP. he also asked me to go JC. somehow, while talking to that uncle, i felt the assurance that going JC ain't that bad. i dont know la. i'll just go wherever God wants me to go.

anyways, i got my new specs!! althought it's like a little big and funky. i think i look smart in it! here it is! =D

cant't see clearly? here's a better pic. that's me wearing my new specs! woots! =D

jersey

it was pure coincidence that i got no. 16. lol. gotta thank ht, cal, michng they all, go all the way down to get this done for us. =D thanks!

love for granted

thank God for sending luwei and sanjie to encourage me.

maybe luwei's right. i did take the love around me for granted. luwei, you made my night. =)

Jesus, teach me how to love like You have love me. show me the love around me.

discontentments

The LORD God said, "It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him." - Genesis 2:18.
"I will make a ezer kenegdo for him."(altered)
not that i altered the bible. that's what God meant. He made girls, women, ezer kenegdo for man. ezer meant help, lifesaver. kenegdo meant along side. girls, women are meant to be a help, a lifesaver alongside with men.
but there are men, especially non-christians dont realise that. they take their ezer kenegdo for granted.
i always thought he was the good guy. she was the one who did not give peace a chance. as time goes by, i realised, she was just being his ezer kenegdo. he took his ezer kenegdo for granted. she is the good guy. he is the one who did not give peace a chance.
of cos, there are girls, women who dont realise their roles as an ezer kenegdo and took their guy as their ezer kenegdo. that's so wrong. (get it, sanjie aka jasmine? =p)

today's paper was a mess. i didnt finish it. i'm so dead. my only humans.

i kinda saw that coming too. it's been a quite a long while sinced i walked alone. yup. did that today. dont wish to elaborate.

at the bus stop, i was full of discontentment. i was praying. God answered. God sent weng khuen. he did nothing. he walked past. he smile, i smile. and he made my day. maybe that's juat what i needed. a smile. nothing else said. just a smile. God knew what i need most. thank You God.

bio paper later. just pray God will be with me. i'm totally confident-less.

prom NOT

blah! i just forked out 50 bucks from my own pocket to pay my mum for prom. why?

not cos i'm going, cos i'm NOT going. lol. yup. prom thing is like so long le, but my money.... and i'm still like supposed to save up for mission trip pocket money, jersey with the girls. i'm broke.

it's like so irritating la. prom clash with YI camp. i paid full amount! and i'm unable to get them back cos it's non-refundable. -.- craps. lol. sinced i've decided that God's more important, i shall just stand by my stand.

i need to study!! SELF-CONTROL! i've been whining a lot about that recently. but never been able to do that. hee!

adios!

random-ness.

i can't help it! i'm just so tempted to blog. rah!

lalala~ i'm only left with my chem, phy and bio p1(mcq) and ss and bio p2. can't wait for everything to be over!!

then it'll be mission training!! yipee!

then i'll be going off to taiwan.. hmm.. not really excited about that. firstly, can't celebrate with friends the end of o's. secondly, it feels weird visiting my uncle there la. yupp, i currently have an uncle in taiwan. thirdly, i'll be missing 1 week of church and 2 trainings and 1 fund raising! =( (gideon, joel, i know you're happy about that. =p)

that's like so sad. blah. i really love archers! i really do! last night joel called to ask me for mt stuffs and tried to prank me. HE WANNA BRING ME TO MALAYSIA! lol! that's a joke la. hee! anyways, after that, i just thought about it. hmm. if i were to leave cg right now, i'll be so missing them. it's like we've bonded so well la. i'll miss my small group, the leaders, my diciples, my disipler and JOEL AND GIDEON'S BULLYINGS(i can't believe i said that). lol.

oh! i just realised something! my physical fitness sucks! lol. since pri sch i think i like forever failing, at most bronze? until p6, woots! silver. it's like finally. then sec sch was silver at first. then drop to bronze. and finally, my last year of sec sch, i got a gold! loL! yupp, my physical fitness sucks!

media.

woots! media sound so fun this november.. but sound really busy too.. haha.. woots! so many events, activities, new people joining us.. lalala~ exciting!! hee!! if like possible, i'll paste the whole of muen's email here! but dont know which can say which cannot... or maybe all also cannot say... or maybe all also can say... -.-" blah!

yupp.. instead of going off to pia ss, i'm still online.. hey! i was about to go off but zhaolun asked me to help him check media schedule. so, being a really nice and kind person, i helped him! =D lalala. i can't wait for meeting, all the briefing and stuffs. i can't wait to serve!! =D

media media media... before i join, i keep asking myself if this is where God wants me to be. i asked God too. i just wasn't sure. but now, i know this is where God want me to be.

screwed

gosh! i like so need fruit of the spirit-SELF CONTROL!!

ss and bio is like around the corner... tomorrow's phy... and what am doing?? blogging.. -.-

at least i did a sbq today. but not enough sia. what am i supposed to do? there's no way to give ms kwa my essays le. her home comp spoil... so i'm like supposed to hand in whatever essays tomorrow? and i like haven touch phy? blah.

i'm like so screwed.

GOD!! HELP ME!!