being a christian

i just recieved an email, you might heard of it before, titled "bible vs. cellphone".
haha. such emails always say... "if you honour God and wanna stand up for Him, you'll forward this."
well, i deleted it.
not that i dont honour God, not that i dont stand up for Him.
but by not sending this doesnt prove anything.
i just dont like forwarding such chain emails to others.
yea, email may take little effort and it's free.
well, i just dont like it.
tho, it's good to take a look at some at times.



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i was thinking, it'll be kinda good if i'm not a christian huh.
jc life's hectic, plus sat church and all.
if i'm not a christian, no commitment, i can do whatever i like.
i can join all the camps i want, be a jj leader, say whatever i feel like saying, do whatever i feel like doing, gossip all i want, spend all the time i want with my friends, probably hang out with the guy i like and such.
i wont have to be bothered by if whatever i'm doing pleases God, if the leaders are looking, if i'm being a good testimony, leaving good impressions.

but well, i AM a christian, and being bothered by stuff like leaders, disciples, impressions, is so wong.
it shouldn't be about all those.
it should be between me and God.
but such symptoms are so prominent today.

main point is... so what if i get to do what i like?
i wont be able to bring all these up to heaven, or down to hell with me.
when i die, all these will fade away.
but when i'm a christian, i stor something better, something for eternity.
you know, 70 years is peanuts compared to infinite years.
wanting to do only what pleases God, that's my purpose.
i no longer have to search for love from people, which is unreliable.
i no longer have to worry so much about trying to fit in, cos i know i'm fearfully and wonderfully made in God's image and i'm called to make a difference.

conclusion: i'm glad i'm a christian.



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can someone define the meaning of being a christian?
today, the meaning of christians is to fear the leaders/disciplers;
to be nagged by them;
to be bothered by them;
to be bothered by leaving good impressions(like the saying 1st impression counts);
to be so bothered about being a good testimony; etc.
being a christian is simple, it's to be like Christ.
to be like Christ is difficult, but that's all that meatters, that's the focus.
of cos those mentioned above are important.
but when God is the focus, all these will just fall into place.
we wont have to try so hard, it'll come naturally.
cos God is the focus.