it doesnt matter, does it?

woah. it's been a long week. i seriously thank God it's thurs. stayed back everyday to do some crappy revision till 4.30pm. it's only on fri we get to go home at 12.30!

hmmm. finally complete all my holiday homework. have not much to worry about now, except the fact that i can't find my notes on blood and there's no way i can write a good essay without them.

craps! since no classmates know about this blog, i feel safer to talk about some stuffs that pissed me off today. heck, i dont even bother if classmates do see this post. it no longer matters.

class is like crappier that usual. probably i'm just too busy with church. probably i just rather spend time with cal and the rest. who cares.

i went to school this morn, as usual. saw corina, doreen and shing with a cake. naturally i asked who was it for. corina said it was for pamela and they included me a share. okie, i gotta admit, i was kinda touch. i thought i'll be all forgotten and such. but hey, they still remember i exist. cool. the day went by and finally, recess. the whole gang of girls swarm out of class. how was i to know what was going on? besides, i was too busy doing my geog homework. i gotta hand it in by recess and i only have 30 mins left. it was definately not enough to complete my work, but i rushed through and made it on time.

anyway, back to the girls. i was doing work when joc and doreen ran into class, nervous and sorts, asking for plaster. i thought something serious happened. they said shing fell and it was kinda serious. i really wanted to help, but i was busy doing geog! some time later, the whole gang of girls walk in laughing. natural instinct, i asked how's shing. the news was then broke to me that they pranked pam to celebrate for her. i was like.. okay.. i thought i had a share in this, but i was not informed? hmmm.

i had to get back to study mood, so i had no time to think about what happened. until after school. i was kinda demoralised knowing that i'll most probably fail my phy test. hey, i was not informed there was a test, was i? i dont know. okie, then i saw a few eating cake and stuffs. i was like, that isn't pam's cake, is it? i convinced myself that no way that's her cake, cos i had a share in it! it's impossible they'll leave me out when they have included me. -.- that's exactly what they did. i didnt know that until like later, when i happened to walk past corina. she ask if i still have a share in pam's bday. "how was i to know?", duh, that was my respond. i dont even know i had a share in it until this very morning! "you didnt even come for the celebration just now. so do you still want to have a part in it?" i was like 'huh?' "i didnt even know you guys celebrated. i was not informed." then she went all 'oohhhh...' and went back to class.

duh, definately i was totally sianed. i decided to pray, asking God to take this sian-ness away so i'll not be affected. then, corina had to shout my name from the class and say,"so you not in le ar?" what can i say? i'm totally put off by that. i just nod my head to show her i agree. just when i was about to turn away, she had to shout my name again, and asked if i'm still sharing the present. i was like whatever and yupp, that was what i shouted back. i was totally... sian. ht, baby and hs saw i was unhappy, but they didnt know why. so i gave the lamest excuse. i'm tired.

i need to cool off. i prayed and figured out an ice-cream may do the trick. bought an ice-cream and the chocolate in it totally put me off. i wanted to puke. i love chocolates. but that chocolate was plain yuck!

home at last. and dian had to make noise. sis had to disobey me, when i'm right. bio notes had to go missing. can this day be any worse?

Holy Spirit... i need help. hmm. guess the Holy Spirit do comfort our hearts, huh. since that's the case, the rest of my day is Yours, Lord.